Relationship Friendship and other "Ships"

I have a friend. Enot. I always call him different names, but this one is the main one. We act like freaks together and we chat about the most touching and serious things for us. We climb roofs, hide in uni, spend nights hanging and he often says this phrase: "It looks like a movie. I feel like we are movie heros". It does.

He s a child. He s too ingenuous too be attractive for girls. He may be even disgusting.

He is 18 and he never kissed.

Once we were sitting in his SKVOT on the stolen from somewhere sofas in the darkness of the room with the best atmosphere I ever felt with wine in glasses. Alone in this party place. Talking about dates. His dates which he started to have. About love and just sex. He never was in love and he doesn t know a girl with whom it would be possible.

-Don t say bullshit, -I said-u r a man, animal, u have a dick, and don t tell me that u don t want just to have sex. Just.

-No, I don t see the point

-So if I come to u and undress u and ...wouldn t u have sex with me?

-with u-never

-ohh...am i so ugly?

-no, u r so friend.

-and if not, if before friendship?

-I guess i even would be in love then

He is in love now. With another girl. They r together.

-U know, I almost feel jealous

-I would feel the same

The sad thing is that I don t need him as a man. I m just afraid to lose him as a friend.